Wednesday, December 14, 2016
The artist is Anthony McCall.
I probably can't say enough about the Art Gallery NSW. I love the place. We visited 3 times. Yep. 3.
I have a wonderful patient and supportive family. The museum is free, which is always a bonus. However they had a fabulous Frida Kahlo and Diego Rivera exhibition that was special and we needed to purchase timed tickets. I am not a big Kahlo fan, but my daughter is and it was a wonderful opportunity to see works that we
The museum has no problem with photography. And they don't seem very uptight about how close you get to the work either. I loved the place!
We went to The Museum of Contemporary Art. Ummm...not my thing. You can see some of the better work that was on display (my personal assessment) here if you are curious. There wasn't anybody doing acrobatics on the suspended ladder things - just ladder thingy's hanging from the ceiling. Boring.
However, there was one exhibit that was absolutely fascinating and nothing I post here will come close to the experience, feeling or visuals we experienced. We spent a good amount of time in there.
It was a totally blacked out dark room. It was actually a bit scary and intimidating to walk into because it was so, so dark. You couldn't see your hand in front of your face - nothing. We walked slowly and carefully not knowing what we were walking into. There was another couple of people in there. We never saw them, couldn't see them, but heard them whispering and speaking very low and quiet.
And yet there was a light in there - being projected through a slit, onto a wall. It then had some kind of mist that was released from the light source every once in while that moved around in this beam of light like ethereal mystical clouds. Awesome.
This will give a little bit of an idea of the light projection - it would change the shape and placement of the lines projected onto the wall every once in a while, but not often.
We took it in for a bit, then got our courage up, it is a museum after all - it felt like touching a valuable painting at first, like a security guard would appear out of the darkness and chastise us. We got over it and walked in and out of the light and fooled around in there, very interesting. These photos really don't do it justice. The more time we spent in there, the more spiritual it seemed. The darkness took on a look, and almost a feel, of really deep, dense, plush velvet. So lush I wanted to touch it but it was intangible, of course. It was a sensual look and feel and very enticing. The light began to feel sharp and piercing like a blade - almost intimidating. A very purposeful and efficient light, no waste, no superfluous overflow, leaking, or extra. Just an extremely sharp and intentional focus and purpose. Exact. Small but extremely powerful, even with the mist swirling gently around - which appeared to stay in the light only. This really was an "I wish you could have been there" experience.
Monday, December 12, 2016
Catching Up - Second Try
Not sure what went wrong but I see that the videos didn't show up. So here is try number two. Hoping this works...
Why is it that the thing we call life keeps getting in the way of my plans and preventing me from doing what I want to do, which is create? Is it life, really? or is it just complicated busy-ness. Nonsense that social and cultural paradigms and customs require? I don't have an answer, but I suspect its a little bit of everything.
My intent was to get back to blogging (and painting) on a regular basis, which obviously hasn't happened. At least not the way I want. I have some catching up to do.
I think I left off in Australia, which is my new favorite country. Such awesome, friendly people! It was a wonderful visit. We started in Sydney. I have the obligatory city-scape, bridge and opera house photos - but really who cares about that stuff?
We went to Bondi beach. No real beach when we were there - and no seaweed or shells or surfers. It was absolutely freezing cold and super windy. There was a sculpture walk all along the trail but it was just too darn cold to enjoy much of it. But I did enjoy this, and I think there is a glimpse of one of the sculptures in there somewhere. The sculpture I did see were not to my personal taste and I wasn't very impressed. But I love the idea of the sculpture walk - and so did a lot of other people - in spite of the freezing windy and sometimes rainy weather - the trail was busy - almost crowded.
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Sunday, October 09, 2016
So without going into all the details, I will just share that currently I am working on reinventing myself. It's the first time in my life that I actually feel free to pursue beauty, and pretty. To think things through a little better (if I can) before I just pounce - or act - like I have done most of my life. Impulsive much? Sometimes. I can't make any promises other than to try. I am making every effort to get out of my head and to paint from my emotions and my heart. Geesh - I'm not sure I even really know what that means. Gonna try to find out though.
For those of you who know me personally know that is akin to walking on water - I don't do emotions. They scare me. But I am going to give it my best shot. It is extremely uncomfortable right now, I am way, way out of my comfort zone and way over my head - but I am committed to going for it.
I've never been a "flower" artist, or an abstract artist, but I've toyed around with it in the past. I'm going to give both of those a real sincere effort for a while and see what happens.
In order to get myself up and moving I have purchased a couple of online classes from Carla Sonheim's site. I am currently taking Lynn Whipple's Big Bold Bloom 2 class. I did not take the Big Bold Bloom 1 class, but I might consider it. I am enjoying it, I am off to a slow start but ramping up, and looking forward to what might show up down the road.
So here are a couple of thumb nails and starts, just to get the ball rolling - Lynn Whipple calls them seed paintings, because they will grow into bigger paintings eventually. Cute. Be sure to visit Lynns blog and view her flower paintings - they are just wonderful.
Here are some thumbnails, (seed paintings) -
And here is a 12" x 12" work in progress (WIP) from the thumbnail I chose to the current state of affairs. It's a chaotic mess - but I have some hope for it.
Saturday, March 03, 2012
Yes – I am digging in my heels and screaming “NO!!!” – again.
This one is about the difference between chucking and chunking things.
I hear people say they are going to “chunk” something meaning they are throwing it out or getting rid of it.
I could not possibly explain it any more simply or any better than they did here at BeeDictionary. Here is what they say:
chunk vs chuck : Common Errors in EnglishIn casual conversation, you may get by with saying “Chuck [throw] me that monkey wrench, will you?” But you will mark yourself as illiterate beyond mere casualness by saying instead “Chunk me that wrench.” This is a fairly common substitution in some dialects of American English.
- (n) a compact mass
- (n) a substantial amount
- (v) put together indiscriminately
- (v) group or chunk together in a certain order or place side by side
- (n) informal terms for a meal (like what you get from a chuck wagon)
- (n) the part of a forequarter from the neck to the ribs and including the shoulder blade (a chuck roast)
- (n) a holding device consisting of adjustable jaws that center a workpiece in a lathe or center a tool in a drill
- (v) throw carelessly
- (v) throw away
- (v) pat or squeeze fondly or playfully, especially under the chin
- (v) eject the contents of the stomach through the mouth (as in up-chuck)
Friday, March 02, 2012
Change is inevitable. I even welcome most change and enjoy it. However when it comes to language I seem to dig in my heels and scream “NO!!!” – especially when the change makes no sense to me.
I hear people say “they could care less” about something meaning that they have no regard for what they are referring to. . This drives me crazy. I googled this phrase and found I am certainly not alone – there are online discussions galore regarding this phrase.
It doesn’t even make sense!
The original, and as far as I am concerned, the only correct phrase is “I COULDN'T care less” if indeed you are intending to mean that you don’t care about something. If you couldn’t possibly care less about something, it means you have zero – none – no care for it in the first place. Therefore, saying “I COULDN’T care less” about something means you don’t have any care at all about it in the first place.
On the other hand, if you say “I could care less” that indicates that you do actually have a measure of care to start with. You are saying in fact, I care and I care a certain amount but I could care less. That leaves me to wonder or ask how much care do you have? How much less could you care?
Please people (especially you news anchors and commentators and influential media people–) THINK (!!!) about what you are saying! and what you are intending to say.
For me, I COULD care less regarding the usage of the phrases “I couldn’t care less” and “I could care less”.
Saying you “could care less” while meaning that you don’t care about something is just confusing. (and for me personally – it makes a person sound ignorant!)
Nevertheless – my research shows that it seems to be becoming more acceptable as an idiom in our language – Please – don’t let it happen!
This is a completely unacceptable change!
Summary:If you DO NOT care at all about something then say you COULDN’T CARE LESS.
If you DO care about something and say you COULD CARE LESS then you are leaving me to ask or wonder how much did you care to start with and how less do you care now. So if you choose to say you “could care less” about something, quantify how much and how little you care please, because I will be wondering…
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
I looked it up online and found these two definitions:
1. a society characterized by human misery, as squalor, oppression, disease, and overcrowding.
2. An imagined place or state in which everything is unpleasant or bad, typically a totalitarian or environmentally degraded one.
Thank you to my brother Bill, who sent me this video. The artist’s name is
Seo Young Deok
Here is a little more information on him and his work
Take a minute, relax, enjoy the music and the sculpture.
Here is the link to the video if you can’t see it here
Monday, February 27, 2012
1 teaspoon extra-virgin olive oil
3 cups peeled and cubed butternut squash, (about 1 pound)
Salt & freshly ground pepper, to taste
1 1/4 cups vegetable or chicken broth, divided
1 tablespoon butter
2 cups diced carrots
2 cups diced parsnips
1 teaspoon sugar
2 large leeks, trimmed (all but 2 inches of green removed), cleaned and chopped
Freshly grated nutmeg, to taste
Preheat oven to 350°F.
Heat oil in a shallow roasting pan on the stovetop over medium heat.
Add squash, season with salt and pepper and toss gently.
Add 1/2 cup broth and transfer the pan to the oven.
Bake until squash is just tender, about 15 minutes; do not overcook.
Meanwhile, heat butter in a large nonstick skillet over medium heat.
Add carrots, parsnips, sugar, and salt and pepper to taste; cook until the vegetables are lightly browned, about 3 minutes.
Add 1/2 cup broth, cover the pan and simmer until tender, about 10 minutes.
Transfer to a dish and set aside.
Add leeks and the remaining 1/4 cup broth to the pan, season with salt and pepper, cover the pan and simmer until tender, about 10 minutes.
Add the reserved squash, carrots and parsnips and toss gently.
Taste and adjust seasonings, adding a grating of nutmeg.
Simmer for an additional 3 to 4 minutes to warm through before serving.
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Sunday, February 26, 2012
This video is on MSN _Bing as well as You Tube here :
I never know what links and stuff will work for different people with different softeare and computers - so I try to give you several ways to see what I am trying to share with you - hopefully something will work and you can see this video - it's cool.
This kid - Thijme Termaat - a very talented young Dutch artist has made a very entertaining video here - I love watching and listening to it!
I'd like to know how you pronounce his name too.
His web site is https://www.thijmetermaat.com/
And thanks Suzanne for sharing this with me!
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Saturday, February 25, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Baby Sunshine – digital
I may play with this one a little more – I like it but it could use a little toning down I think. The yellow is blinding me.
And what do you think it should be - Warhol-ish or Warhol-ian silliness?
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Hat Lady – digital
Thought about naming this “Church Lady” - and I still might change it to that. LOL
I love this one. Such silliness!
As I mentioned previously - I have been "working on lightening up" a bit in my life (that phrase alone makes me snicker), and playing more. So for fun I enrolled in an online class developed by Jessica Wesolek at Cre8it.com
I took an online photography class with her a few years back and thought it was good so I gave this one a shot. NOT diasappointed and it has just started!
I have a bazillion (okay, maybe not a bazillion, but I have quite a few) art and photo apps for my iPad and iPhone already and occasionally mess around with them. Right off the bat Jessica introduces a new and free app that I don't have and hadn't heard of called PhotoPad. It has a lot of capability and is easy to use. (She also introduced us to a nifty $.99 list/to do type app called CLEAR - very, very simple, basic, and brand new.)
By the way - I don't wear hats, the hat was completely drawn and painted in using the PhotoPad app. You can tell if you look - these were done quickly and playfully - but I am loving the potential of this app.
So these altered photos are really from stuff I am doing/learning in Jessica's class with just one app - PhotoPad by Zagg. You can find it in the iTunes store - or look for it where ever you get your apps. Zagg makes the best shields for your iPhone and iPad - and you can actually upload your artwork to Zagg and make a skin for your device.
(I took these self portrait photos a long time ago with some other phone app - I don't even remember which one now - but (obviously)it had an option to distort in various ways so these old pics were hanging around - finally found something to do with them!)
They make me giggle a little...
Monday, February 20, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
It’s something that I am so enthused about that I just have to share it. What’s that you ask? Food and recipes, that’s what. I am so happy with my new way of eating that I am going to start sharing good recipes when I find them.
Here is a little background. On Oct 1, 2011 I had a cholesterol test done and the results were not good. A lot not good, I was one step away from have to go on an Rx to lower it. On Oct 31 and Nov 1, 2011 my husband and I watched Forks Over Knives and Food Inc. on Netflix and the very next day we started converting to veganism and vegetarianism. Watch those videos!! Since that day I have been a very faithful vegan and the hubby is probably 80% vegan.
Jan 2, 2012 I had another cholesterol test and I just got the results of that. It dropped 29 points!! I am now in the healthy range! No meds and a very happy cardiologist to boot. 29 points in just 8 weeks! just by changing my diet to vegan - I completely fixed my dangerous cholesterol levels. It has been easy, tasty and delightful. Besides becoming Vegan, we have been experimenting with raw food also. I don’t think we will convert to a raw food diet, but we are including it.
1 bunch kale, slivered
2 green onions, diagonal sliver
1/2 red bell pepper, fine dice
2 carrots, shredded
1 gold beet, shredded
1/4 cup hemp seed
1/4 cup olive oil
2 Tbsp apple cider vinegar
2 Tbsp lemon juice
2 Tbsp Agave
3 garlic cloves
1 Tbsp hemp seed
1 pinch of sea salt
fresh basil and oregano to taste
Prep the veggies. Blend all dressing ingredients. Mix it all up and munch away!
There is a raw food restaurant in Encinitas, CA called Peace Pies. A tiny little place off the beaten path.
We first had this salad there. I bought their Recipe book and that is where this recipe comes from. Yum!
Enjoy! Let me know if you try it and if you like it.
Now for just a little art update. Here is the state of my home studio at the moment. A new little project under way – stay tuned…
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
A page from my sketchbook.
I am not a doodler by nature. But I am trying to doodle more. And play more. And “lighten up” more. Funny – she doesn’t look very “light” does she? Not intended to be sad – I think she looks sad – intended to be more “wishful.” Or is that “wistful?” I was thinking about how much I don’t remember from high school and how much I would like to still learn and understand. I wish I could have known when I was younger how interesting I would find math and science when I was older. And history. School was so easy for me – I didn’t have to study, didn’t have to try very hard, and I didn’t comprehend the importance of hardly anything – let alone academic stuff. I would have paid more attention then if I had only known.
Here’s another page from my sketchbook.
Warning: Rant to follow
I heard about Zentangling and was curious about it. The doodle above the bird is a Zentangle pattern. I have been playing around with it a little bit and while it is fun, sort of mindless, kind of relaxing and a bit of a mental vacation – I also find myself having mixed feelings about it. On one hand, I applaud the “founders” of Zentangling who have taken age old patterns and designs, registered and trademarked the name, systemized it and made a business out of it. Good for them. I love an entrepreneur!
On the other hand it irritates the heck out of me that just like Al Gore and his cohorts found a way to make money out of thin air with carbon credits – these people have found a way to make money from free and ancient patterns and designs.
I lean more toward rooting and cheering the Zentangling people on than not. It brings a lot of people joy and healing and fun, and unlike the Global Warming people, no one is trying to force anyone to buy into their program. Totally the opposite of the nonsense that the Al Gore crowd tries to pressure, guilt and foist on us.
Yay for the Zentanglers.
End of Rant – for now…
Sunday, January 22, 2012
…but I am back. There is so much on my mind and so much has transpired I don’t even know where to begin. So in no particular order I think I will just start and do a stream of consciousness sort of thing – just what ever comes up.
Rick and I just celebrated our 35th wedding anniversary, He gave me the new Zelda, Skyward Sword game for our Wii. I know that sounds like a goofy gift but I couldn’t think of anything I would enjoy more! I am a big fan of the Zelda games and while I am horrible at playing the game I sure do enjoy it. Seriously, I am the worlds worst player – it takes me months and months to complete a game, but I love every maddening and frustrating second of it.
I have a very busy brain, which is very hard to focus and hardly ever rests or shuts down, so it is hard to find a break, distraction or any mental vacation time. However, when I play Zelda – I am hyper-focused and playing it fully, completely, totally, it’s Zelda and only Zelda – everything else disappears. It is a brain vacation – or the closest I can get to one. I come away feeling refreshed and feel like I can look at the world with fresh eyes.
And boy do I need fresh eyes these days.
I dropped out of the artist mentor program I was in. There I said it. It’s out there, but I still don’t really want to talk about it yet. It was definitely the correct thing to do – but a very emotional decision. Like I said – not ready to talk about it…
I haven’t been painting. I don’t want to talk about that yet either.
I wanted to do something artistically fun, something light. Something different. So I found Carla Sonheim’s SIlly U online and enrolled in a couple of classes. It was fun, a nice light review, with exercises that I haven’t visited for decades. I liked the imaginary creatures best – and I discovered that while I consider myself an animal lover – I don’t really have a lot of familiarity with them. I did a few one-liner drawings from my imagination/memory. That means once your pen hits the paper you don’t lift it until you are finished – and no reference material was used, using a flowing lyrical movement. Exactly what I was looking for. Not great art – but fun.
Here is one of my favorite drawings – and you’ll see some more popping up now and then I am sure.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
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Saturday, October 22, 2011
I just got an iPad. One of the primary reasons I wanted one was to use it as a sketchbook. Well, that and I really like technology... Also I can carry several Bible versions with me, and it's much easier to read than on my iPhone...
So this is the first real sketch I've done. I saw this adorable little girl in the
Nordstom catalog. It was done in the free version of the Sketchbook app... I liked the app a lot and will probably buy the full version but before I do I have several other apps to try.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Everyone loves Yoda. In the movie he is full of wisdom, mild mannered, gentle yet formidable. You just know you do not want to cross this gentle creature as he could probably vaporize you on the spot - you respect Yoda! You listen to Yoda.
I have no problem with Yoda. He is a wonderful fictional character in an extremely entertaining movie.
However, I do have a problem with this quote.
I hear it quite often, as apparently I am prone to say "I will try" this or that. That statement seems to be completely unacceptable to many people, who perceive it as being negative thinking. Those who ascribe to this quote - which seems like almost everybody in my circle of acquaintances all feel the necessity to correct me and quote Yoda when I say I will try something. It is just too negative for them.
I have a whole different take on this.
The word "try" is filled with positivity and potential - it holds forth opportunity to experiment, to goof around, to get into things I haven't done or - Should I say it? things I haven't tried before. The word itself is strong and full of energy. It means persistence and perseverance and commitment. At least to me it means those things...and more.
When I say I will try something it is coming from a place of hope, faith and belief. Try as I might to comply and conform I simply cannot bring myself to buy into thinking that "I'll try" is negative thinking.
For example I have a 1 year old grandson who is learning to walk. He gets up, he falls down, he gets up again and he falls down again. What is he doing? he is TRYING! If I said to him - "Do or do not. There is no try" what would the outcome be? He would get up, fall down and STAY there - because he "did not," and after all there is no "try" - so no point in getting up again. The process would be repeated when it came time to learn to ride a bike, learn to read, play a sport, or anything else. (Of course that would all be rendered moot since he would never have learned to walk or do anything else in the first place if following this line of thinking) He would be trapped in failure - with no hope of ever succeeding because - there is no "try."
Here is another example to prove that trying is based in hope, faith and/or belief. If someone told me I would not get hurt if I jumped off a tall building I would have to weigh my options before I made the decision to "Do or not do." I would choose 'Not do" of course (as any sane person would) - because I have absolutely no hope, no faith and no belief that it is possible or true. In this case it would be "There is no try" and for good reason. However let's say it's a tree I was invited to jump from with out getting hurt - that would change the decision making process. I DO have hope, faith and belief that indeed I could possibly do it without getting hurt. There is risk of course, I could sprain an ankle, or break a leg or injure myself some other way but the risk may be worth the try. There IS a "try" - Yoda is wrong! (Oh my goodness - this is a blasphemous statement to a Star Wars fan!)
I can't help but think of Thomas Edison. Would we still be burning oil lamps if he ascribed to this quote? Here is a man who believed in trying - and continuing to try! He was a man of faith, perseverance and determination!
It has been reported that Edison failed (or might we say tried?) over 6,000 times before perfecting the first electric light bulb.
Perseverance pays. Trying and continuing to try is positive, faith and hope in action.
There is only "no try" without hope, faith and/or belief in the possibility of success. And repeated tries often lead to success. To keep trying is to persevere, to persist.
When I sin (miss the mark) do I sit down and give up, as a failure? Because there is "no try"? Absolutely not! Because I have faith, belief and hope that if I repent, ask for His help and continue to practice (i.e try). I can and will get it right. I have hope, faith and belief that like the Loving Parent that He is, YVHV my Father is once again picking me up, brushing me off and cheering me on. I have hope, faith and belief that I can improve, I can get it right, I can succeed - IF i continue to try.
Sorry Yoda and all my Star Wars fans, I am not buying into this ultimately defeating and discouraging statement, I'll go with this quote: "Tis a lesson you should heed, Try, try again. If at first you don't succeed, Try, try again".
[1840 T. H. Palmer Teacher's Manual 223]
And so I will go back into my studio and try once again to create a new, interesting and meaningful painting. Whether I "do or do not", whether I succeed or fail, I will continue to try.
"Let us not become weary in doing good: for in due season we will reap, if we don't faint." (Galatians 6:9)
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Sunday, August 07, 2011
My two daughters and grandson are leaving me - round two of the empty nest syndrome! The youngest is back in Ohio already to go to graduate school and start a career change. The other daughter is moving to Oklahoma with my (only) grandson and her Marine officer husband - and then who knows where after that. I can only hope they will come back to Camp Pendelton and be near me once again.
I will miss them tremendously - but their departure will afford me the opportunity to focus completely on my art again - with few distractions. That is a good and bad thing - I love my "distractions" and enjoy being with them, but I also love my art-making and enjoy doing that too.
I bumped into this video - found it on another blog called The Abundant Artist - and it just gave me chills. I hope you enjoy it too. It is the poem "Farewell" put to music. Enjoy!
Blair puts Emily Dickinson's "Farewell" to Music at Detroit's Institute of Arts from Erik Proulx on Vimeo.
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Friday, July 01, 2011
I posted this TED talk video on Facebook several weeks ago and a friend just re-posted it. I enjoyed this so much I thought I needed to put it on my blog and share it with you too. I never tire of watching this guy - he amazes me! What a talented creative and obviously hardworking guy.
So as usual this may not show up in email - so be sure to go to the link and watch this on line - I just know you will enjoy this artst.
Or here is the link
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Saturday, May 28, 2011
Here is another untitled painting from my recent work. It’s acrylic and 24” x 48”
I consider it nearly done – not quite!
Sometimes there is just no explaining life. So I have had a big swerve in my art work and now a sudden life altering crash in my life – which I am certain will ultimately cause another different kind of swerve in my artwork again. I expect all of this to be incredibly good news and good stuff. In a nutshell, I ended up having emergency surgery, spent several days and nights in the hospital, and am home now doing fine, thank you.
I may ramble on a bit here – so fair warning – you might want to hit your delete button right now, but this has been one amazing journey. Don’t worry – I am not going into all the gory details. Talking about “meds” and “procedures” and medical stuff just makes me want to find a gun and shoot one of us in the head! However, I am astounded nearly daily at the revelations I have been getting, and they bear recording I think. So here comes a bit of personal journaling.
Things I understand now that I didn’t fully understand before:
1) A new appreciation for pain and what it can do to you. I am no stranger to pain, and I have a high tolerance for it. I have been scalded with boiling water, set on fire, in a number of motorcycle and car wrecks, have had numerous concussions, have debilitating migraines, broken a few bones, and have had babies. I have never experienced any pain like this.
2) Why hospitals don’t leave surgical tools laying around. Had I been able to gain access I would l have started trying to cut my own pain out.
3) How someone could be driven to chew their own limb off. I get it now.
4) How creative people can easily get hooked on drugs. I’m not much of an “altered consciousness” fan. Not much of a drinker, dislike drugs, I like life straight and clear. Besides, my body doesn’t react in typical or normal ways to stuff. They had a very difficult time finding the right concoction of pain meds for me in the hospital. There was a period of time where it seemed like every 10-15 minutes they were pumping me full of morphine and something that sounds like “diluted” and other chemicals that I have no clue what was – but it created a window of time – a creative encounter of sorts - where I personally solved all the creative problems of the Universe! I did! It was genius! It was delightful and fun and I felt like I was completely clearheaded! I could not wait to get to my sketchbook to record all of these incredible ideas and paintings and sculptures - and there was something about floating through the sky in a rowboat that was awesome! And no, I don’t remember a thing about all of it now – and that is sad. Very sad, for me and the world – as I really did have genius ideas, concepts and solutions. I now have a little bit of a desire to recreate that experience – so I can see where chemistry and artistry may want to encounter each other…and how creative people may partake in that encounter.
Like I said - I have no interest in or tolerance for medical stuff, illnesses, medicines and am not a lovey-dovey, touchy-feely, nurturing, compassionate person. While my family knows without a doubt that I love them and would do absolutely anything for them – they would without hesitation agree with the above statement. If you need comfort and compassion – go to Dad. If you need raw truth and a kick in the a** – call Mom. Just the way it is. While I HOPE that this recent experience will soften me around the edges, and that I will become a more compassionate person, I’m not holding my breath. But I do understand a few things a little better now.
More revelations next time.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
24” x 48”
So the other artists in my mentor group suggested I get angry – and I did! Angry at myself, and began going places that have been barricaded for decades, and this is what is coming out.
I don’t think I will say too much about them just yet.
This is supposed to be an acrylic under painting – to be finished in oils, however at my reception last Saturday I got so much positive feedback that I am reconsidering. I may just leave this as is and do another in oil. Once again – it’s an iPhone pic.
More to come…
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
24” x 24”
Oil on canvas
I’ve just been taking iPhone pics and this is another one. I will have to take a day and do a photo shoot in order to catch up and get some decent photos.
This is the last painting I did before I began my big swerve into another lane. I’ll start posting some pics of those later today or tomorrow.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Here is the latest painting. It is a iPhone photo and a really bad one at that. Again in the 18” x 24” range. It is currently untitled and I am not sure it is finished. I had words in the background which got lost and I may put them back in. Not sure. This one may have to simmer for a bit.
Today is going to be sort of a day off for me – I am exhausted, for no good reason, I can feel that virus trying to come back, I have some follow-up doctor appointments from my E.R. trip the other morning, still need to find a plumber for the kitchen, Rick and I had a little tiff and he really hurt my feelings (that NEVER happens) – and I can feel stress in general trying to bash my door in. Years ago I had a doctor suggest that I may have fibro-myalgia. I completely rejected that idea, I didn’t even believe that was a real thing. Now I am beginning to wonder…nah. Well…?
I just completed reading a blog written by a friend HERE where she wrote about her entire life – one year at a time, starting at zero. It was fascinating to me. She seems to have had such a wonderful, wholesome, balanced, healthy NORMAL life. She has fun, good, warm and loving memories from almost every year of her life. Even her trials seem so – manageable and well, normal. Can this be real? Do people really have lives like this?
I have toyed with writing my memories – or an autobiography many times, but I wouldn’t do it until everybody I knew was dead, so I will probably be dead then too. That won’t work. Maybe writing under a pen name… Maybe writing as she did would be a good exercise. It would be a good exercise to try to find at least one fun or warm or “normal” memory for each year – there are many I am sure, but that would be a really big challenge for a lot of years. Hmmmm….